have I made way-of-looking explicit enough here before now, I'll read to remind myself, but later. Sure to have made it explicit differently than this: at Banshee's house now, and for the week, looking at her bookshelf in a new way-- vague familiarity with the family to which I'd say the new understanding belongs that I'd called to myself 'black air'. [the idea 'black air' itself has a life and history with turnings to be uncovered some other day. I only note here it's changed since I first said it to myself maybe 15 years ago
(naming so long a duration that I can't even make the kinds of mistakes that get me complaining about 'four months'. other mistakes surely)]
books looking like what they were. masses; not sheaves, but not surfaces(covers). and also temporary missives. Katie and Lyal who live here, might see them this way always. for me it's a lesson
gazes not correlated to one another or body movements. not used to cognize space. ten hundred glances only!
for friendliness, a little nice thing about 'four months': being of different lengths, months, when collected, carry tolerances with them, without being told. a house for thinking