holding on to affected by
dream of relatives deeply criticizing me
sitting cross-legged or so on mattress-bench, dark wood [don's house], back to wall, tv somewhere, or aquarium light, dark 2 floors high space just above me, sloping down, perpendicular hall to left, other doorway beyond talkers. inlaws couple in front, ?sister to left. both exits therefore guarded/ 'manned'.
criticism before art exhibition, to not hurt artists feelings. as part of general criticism.
example of desilu episodes didn't work to help me be different last time.
wake up feeling its true, but no specifics. very bad feeling.
one thought was to bring a broader appeal to the sounds of the metronome.
drop the need for validity