"He took a thin roll of blue cloth from his sleeve.¶ This contrivance was one of Tao Gan's many ingenious inventions. When unrolled, it proved to be a roughly sewn bag made out of the blue cloth that people ordinarily use for wrapping up the bundles they carry. It had a square shape, but all kinds of queer folds and spare corners had been sewn in it. By fitting together, in various combinations, the dozen thin bamboo staves inside, Tao Gan could make this bag assume all kinds of shapes-- from the square bundle containing laundry to the oblong package full of books. In his varied career this contraption had proven especially useful to him.¶ Tao Gan adjusted the bamboo staves inside in such a way that the bundle seemed to contain carpenter's tools. His transformation was completed in a few moments and soon he was walking down the pathway, his shoulders bent a little as if the bundle he was carrying under his arm was quite heavy."

rakusu/okesa pattern generated at print time from saved proportions equations, algorithms, and some measurements. --one measurement.. light blue very thin cloth, with padding, straight stitch, sleeves for staves strips, dirt rubbed in line of truss ridge, crossed diagonally, incommensurately (pentagonal angles. lattice darkened at crossings (first WAVE OFF VHS video synthesis) incommensurate ("problem #E2007"...)) by stitching for other uses configurations

faking in tradition world, signs of tradition: color coding, color meaning, shape code, out of the bushes on to the pathway

CHEAP High-Energy Mineral-Water!!

patterns are forming, inclosed bright faces of the fogged-gold snub-enclosure,
"DAY OF"-VERSION DVD
                                         

http://www.aisf.or.jp/sjaanus/namazu.cgi?query=latex2e棚

very small patterning extraction , printing, wheatpaste in food-grade godwaffle-reproduction bucket.
fixed width masking tape seams in rosin paper sleeves gowns
\a noise generator in TeX

% To exploit the whole possible range and guarantee good performance,
% $a$ and $m$ are set as follows:
% $a = 7^5  \; = 16807$ and $m  = 2^{31}-1 \; = 2147483647$ and
% this gives $q=127773$ and $r=2836$.  \uniform deviates, and a

\Red 182 LBS Buckram library binding: IRCAM report#30: panoplie

and of course the rubbed copy of Volume 2:

   Seminumerical Algorithms broken set, only travel with one

as Thorndyke's tools, his friend imagined Tao Gan's shape changing toolkit, light blue cloth, with bamboo staves inside, making variable edges and solidity (Van Gulik's Judge Dee). So we make a house like this

Mobile Geometry Crimpshrine

masking tape floors in angle declination, pranced (sweatpants!)
house wiring, undedicated to signal type, impedance-couplings-
agreements Standards Recognized: vinyl speeds' motors «Harry
Pussy records» helical scan ratios, graphics file formats..
     (house data rates, phones, encryptions, recordings) half-dots
     bookshelf concomitant relationships research catalog
        collaborator synchronizations: RealTimeClock,
        collision detection/protocols, dark room timers
        love-antennae
sweeping, nailbrush, wire brush, Thorndyke's toolset:
        "willesden" [cupric/cuprous oxide, zinc oxide, ammonia]
                                                                 canvas, (paper!) hand-box
        insulfator, idioform dust
        microscope, slides, stains, reagents, glassware!
        spirit lamp
        lock-picks! tweezers, forceps, scissors, screwdrivers,
        notebook
        vacuum pumps blowers, filters

"I see you have your mysterious little green box up on the hat rack" 

"I never go away from home without it"

little square case- a foot square and four inches deep- like a doll house

        spring-tape, micrometer, slide-rule

it looks like a toy, but it isn't one

"Novelist's Tools / ephemera div. "
(concepts- again-bite; woven glossary of rhetorical terms)
mobile geometry unfolding quilted backpack layout

Lights! J/+\R/+\P/ T\-/I\-/P/ XLST/ FXP/
(pack list: knob training,
parallel-play)

I DON'T CARE ABOUT SLEEP ANYMORE
harpsichord: come ! on ! tell ! me ! about ! it
swingles' bach (jesu), Jacques L O U S S I E R «take it easy»
Charlie brown christmas Guaraldi
Rose in Spanish Harlem • It's Love That Really Counts THANK YOU
some millitary march transposed into almost leroy anderson but with tight bass.
some slow ECM beauty, maybe keith jarrett • copeland? • Vitamin C Graduation
Swingle Pachelbel Canon

Down in the valley the shepherd sees

His flock is close at hand

And in the night sky a star is falling down From someone's hand
...
This time I will take the lead somehow

Several Synth Bachs 

Hall+Oates-When The Morning Comes

mystery 70's metal precussion and flute track,
          violin is coming chorusedECM, multiphonics
tomita debussy (sunken chapel, looking down on bells under water, hart Crane's ATLANTIS,
PIXIES Waves Of Mutilation LIVE
)
end of encore [fast version/slow version], quartz lamps black body radiation cool-off,
moments in film: information on these headlights curves,
TVs turning off (John Hawk, I recommend Halton Arp's Redshifts & Controversies to you)
tv turning off on ST:V.. (In Heaven Everything Is Fine)

there Is a band like this

Oh, there's a band like this.
seems like they'd be loud, like you don't think so at first but then you go and they're louder than you thought, but it makes sense. Seems like they're into other things too, like.. well I can't tell exactly what they're into, but if you pick any particular thing I think I could tell you if they like it or what they might say. what they might be wearing to play the show, how they present themselves.
how they talk to each other

identifying certain melodies or riffs as belonging to a particular imaginary band, finding out certain things go together, same recording, same band, same song?
way of doing cover artwork: imagine doing something with the record, giving it to someone for example, or hurrying to open a next box of them to sell one, pulling at the kraft-paper tape filaments
which would entail imagining the record cover without attending directly to what it ought to look like. glimpse of the cover. several glimpses.
does he turn the record over, try to read the back? how do his eyes move/ where is the writing

blue question mark spray-painted on our jc-120 grill cloth

 making fun imaginative and most importantly impressive user interface for forensic image manipulation
(exhibit#2009! http://www.nwnprod.com/forum/search.php?search_author=fe1354)
like TV show detection threshold. the sounds of this imaginary computer program. sounds to describe latent data bits floating free of their mire... digital solvents, chemical reaction analogy sounds.. fizzing, ads for cleaning products, optics catalog ad sounds mirrors lenses..
an ebay auctioneer's face reconstructed by their reflections in images of shiny objects they've posted for sale-
idea completely divested of any scariness, any music cop show themes, put in place some microscope music? bagel shop music, just for fun background sounds atmospheres.. morning crowd sounds (?afternoon) voice barely pops out [those voices you are happily surprised get transcribed on to the closed captioning] happily requesting a code for the free-to-customers-wi-fi. scroll printer sounds. sounds of talking around snack table at sampling of technical conferences-- the era in which computer programming languages could be substituted for natural language requirements in Master's programs. a room full of people who did that. a dial to adjust just the sound of the snacks in this soundscape: more clinking, the value of the china on which the cheese is served, reduce gooyness, adjust into crumbling, into crackers. coffee service clinks. building AC sounds. model le corbusier air flows/ ancient air flows.

cage's relating 26 to each lesser int

to be playing John Cage (JC, Jesus Christ, as my teacher of Grapes Of Wrath pointed out) in a film I am thinking of being him, and uncovering similar decisions (that the second coming might laugh at the first coming, looking in on a superseded instantiation. (thought before current cage involvement, before remembering GoW) maybe as the relation of a zodiacal sign to its predecessor. limitations)
an examination of the decisions inherent to the tables in John Cage's Song Books
1;
1:1;
21:22:21;
1:1:1:1;
13:13:12:13:13;// 64/5=12+(4/5);(12*5)+(1*4)=64,
      five twelves, four of them increased by one.
10:11:11:11:11:10;// 64/6=10+(4/6);(10*6)+(1*4)=64,
      six tens, four of them increased by one.
9:9:9:10:9:9:9;// (9*7)+(1*1),
       seven nines, one of them increased by one...
1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1;
7:7:7:7:8:7:7:7:7;// (7*9)+(1*1)
7:7:6:6:6:6:6:6:7:7;// (6*10)+(1*4)
       // so why not 6:6:6:7:7:7:7:6:6:6 ?
5:6:6:6:6:6:6:6:6:6:5;// (5*11)+(1*9)
5:5:5:5:6:6:6:6:5:5:5:5;// (5*12)+(1*4)
5:5:5:5:5:5:4:5:5:5:5:5:5;// (4*13)+(1*12
       // in this case I can explain the bimodal distribution
4:4:4:5:5:5:5:5:5:5:5:4:4:4;// (4*14)+(1*8)
5:5:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:5:5;// (4*15)+(1*4)// and here also
1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1:1;
3:3:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:3:3;// (3*17)+(1*13)
4:4:4:4:4:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:4:4:4:4:4;// (3*18)+(1*10
        //  why not 3:3:3:3:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:3:3:3:3?
3:3:3:3:3:3:4:4:4:4:4:4:4:3:3:3:3:3:3;// (3*19)+(1*7)
4:4:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:4:4;// (3*20)+(1*4)
3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:4:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3;// (3*21)+(1*1)
2:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:2;// (2*22)+(1*20)
3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3;// (2*23)+(1*18
  // explained (4 cases: odd and even*quotients and remainders)
2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2;// (2*24)+(1*16)
3:3:3:3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3:3:3:3;//
       (2*25)+(1*14)// explained
2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2;//
        (2*26)+(1*12)
3:3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3:3;//
        (2*27)+(1*10)//explained
3:3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3:3;//
        (2*28)+(1*8)// why not {{10:8:10}}
3:3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3:3;//
        (2*29)+(1*6)// explained I suppose
3:3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3:3;//
        (2*30)+(1*4)// why not {{13:4:13}}
3:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:2:3;//
        (2*31)+(1*2)
1:1.....1:1;//2
1:2:2:2:2...2:1;
1:1:2:2:...2:1:1;
...
1:1:1:1:1:1:1:2.....2:1:1:1:1:1:1:1;
...
1:1:1....1:2:1:1....1:1;
this as it was, as of last typing week.
======
and in the time since then, a simpler explaining abstraction of 'symmetry' (optimality theory taste), closer to what might inhere to the tables
?parallel to Schoenholtz' examination of the probabilities in yarrow stalk  method of I Ching cast.
'smoothness' [consider "moments" (of inertia, of distribution. I have not yet understood this verbal yūgen cloud in which some physics masters are smiling.)]
composed as music might be, ?smooth-modulations
...in progress

kinds of heat VI

note regarding Kinds Of Heat posts and investigations I have found something that perhaps should have been assumed from the premise and ways of talking: infrared radiation can be polarized! thus carrying some quality or coefficient which may serve to explain it's differentiation into kinds. To be examined the description shape implications of 'polarization' and how the shapes apply to a possibly structuring of the kinds of heat. more generally, an analysis of these shape domains (quartets, rings.. missing patches) and meanings in theories. the converse possible realization that after examining the structure of the kinds of heat (like laying out of the periodic table) it bears a structural relation to the shapes implied by the facts on polarization, and hence conclusion that the 'coefficient (sonantique)' is polarization, and therefore that ir may be polarized.
a book of just these shapes, and a longer appendix of further possibles, to be named later. I can see the fonts

ISST

tools that allow us to proceed in a variety of ways, hold them with a variety of grips,
use them as 'as if in the invention of uncertainty, the greeks were before it'- a plebian lottery unworthy of the name, missing true virtue
//now we may link our private number sequence generators
//some next little steps: "resizing" (scaling..tiling) control-display surfaces based on 'content', scrolling styles

CjHz

dependance on tools beyond our personal control, (etc. astronomy, development of Magma computer algebra software) 'electronics' in Cage's usage ('dials'!) coming to mean computer jackass (M.McLuhan I.Illich) picture of academic well clothed and made up with computer which they have no beginning of fixing if it bites

Should have a backwards arched T-I-P in background of drawing: finding when keying on:(cage song books), kostelanetz's snapshot, leading to another about têtes-bêches where he mentions SRDelany several times.
List of  people who have written on psychic contraception (Burdekin!)
see how now I've finally got the emphasis in the right direction; my slow reluctance, in publishing SUDDENNESS, coeval text series. in balancing emphases

just now walking returning to calarts where last night I'd had a nice time in the video synthesis lab, I saw some similar things on the ground: a reflection from a book I held, blocked in part by my arm projected onto a shadow of same. one body projected onto two interpenetrating planes interacting by coloring one another

William Sabiston, this is what we'd talked about! tool dependance (on my mind), gaining insight from synthesizers, greatest gains inside, presenting to oneself. letter to sabiston on physical analogs of July 20th 1964. (date of letter from Charles Ford to Walt Lee giving list of Starewicz films)

home copy of a T.M.Cleland cartoon showing the woodsman setting up, used in analogy to explain the discarding of extremal portions of the spectrum to achieve a balanced feeling in Munsell textbook. copied on to fluorescent post-it note, but scanned into present salmon color..

shadow drop algorithms, 'disable shadows' checkbox, pedestal of pedestals, clear perspex, comics hound, video illo comics cards, surf mutant dino, getting at the same thing twice, using funny lineups; self-test mix, buffing off excess precisions. uptightness about respect precision. blasogging through possible perspectival grabbing heads. can't help but, 'keep it pure'(chris cohen), direct instinct in overlay- focal freeslide. rhythm feeling propagation, dancers, bands.

searching in the past(ConceptOf)for more highly parameterized conceptualizations

searching in the past(ConceptOf) for more highly parameterized conceptualizations
stelostna
presscel
ostna(bruuck↑)
       prest
tthatther
ettwoultd
betalong
renbabe
becauyae
yaeyago
odteatim
etoocaal
peokelp
efpeonp
ethepeg
oalpeep
eeethatt
ohaveac
aalbemis
sedpolite
ly

font synthesizer computer typesetter live instrument
beautiful control bank
slow time-(pressure cooker)constant ravings

the barge of the dead, rainbow barge of tonality on the feild of sound

in a unusual body, in a body different from the ones seen in public, when witnessing with the public mind, as a facet of the group mind.
we have to interpret the symbols and search for a meaning.
I was sea-sick
learning from decision-making in star-trek (converse: mistaken rushing. octave one, to spot on the plane of these. then the plane-stack of these premise-fields)
as of this posting I am actually in love rising tide of many years
remember that if we were risen as gods our birthdays would be national holidays, leading in forming the public aspect of time armature.
dates for song titles (birthdates when relevant)
"durable erosions of the air" !b
intensity+parameter linearConcept automation
pedal

another picture violet emanation above grayscale

"precious signals"

"like lightning in a cloud": JC120 praise online seen years ago, and stuck in mind. last month I have finally seen a lightning that might have been what was meant, in flat dark blue each flash disclosing a piece of the cloud around it, at a slow syllabic rate. each flash showed a letter form, and in succession began speaking to me. the first complete word I got was 'reality'
two days ago in tiredness the tile floor in my waiting area started to display letter-forms too, one of the clear words 'forest', and numbers, acronyms.. I found I was reaching ahead of the moment and driving the meanings towards silly places so I stopped, but I'm happy to have found this, for later

only in recently years have I started to think myself what Thomas Bonvalet told me in the past about the effects of the distance one is able to project personal plans or ideas into the future. He told me about when that horizon becomes very close, like not being able to see around a curve, and the bad feelings or mind-state that can accompany that. now I've said the same words in reporting about myself.
I've also been thinking about this projection on as many different scales as I can.
extending the limit of imagining the distribution of how time was used. extending self-data-analysis, in part as a way of extending the limit of projecting into the future. (note to translate into french one of the first among the other texts, if the opportunity arises)(or motive to engage more formally, that a book ought to be translated. by strength of a individual communicative push in writing, a push is called forth from readers, who as a community generate translations.)[these spatial analogies in proximity call up many possibilities, in someways like certain multi-threaded st:tng plots.]

lanes of the freeway as states of the union, pick the place where people are acting such that you can be as you'd like. sub- and super-particulate vortexes, handedness of rotation given disposition of lanes and left- or right-hand steering. void dweller, space seeker- partitioning the reality of the situation into fluid categories. view of the traffic as hydrodynamic flow, reforming causality, pushing waves out in front of the active particle.

shinto position field, projection-only mapcard, pricked metal sheet, 'dog-tag',
center blur, information beyond

backwards music surface

a story I started to make up about playing Park Detail's Band is: everything is coming from missing a real piano; playing bass with the cz-1 is making up for not having as close physicality as the real piano. and half way through tour I made a keyboard split and put a backwards version of the sound to the right of it, and that felt the same too, that I could get closer to some missing thing with this extra sounds. But the thing I'm getting closer to only existed in my mind, so all the missing and re-approaching is only making it shown for the first time to others. one part of that is the surface of the piano sound, like what I'd imagine the shimmering surface of flows separating waters of differing salinity. lifting off and away from the body and mass of the sound, refocusing on the surface, and the surface of that surface, and so forth if manageable. so the backwards sounds ought to be things you might hear in a mass of the forwards sounds (anticipated on the first night by Peter Kolovos' backwards bits only under the loudest ringing sustained tremolo picked chords.)... the bass might be phantom patterns in the differing sweeps of each reattacked ringing chord.. of course they become things and then we try to search for the surface of these masses, hopefully. (and by the way, in the split I thought of Charlemagne Palestine with double pianos for playing unisonos, who might be in a similar place I'd like to ask about)

hope in instrument design of that retreat upon retreat to impressions of appearing surfaces. of holding this steady. setting and vanishing appearances with better understanding and will, not too behind or ahead of the moment.

panoply you can't make up

return after staying away for a while, things look different, but are much more than I could have remembered what they're different from without their reminder. kitty is smaller! and all night the toy keyboard was making occasional notes like a dripping faucet, a few different pitches always right around 500Hz, in an amazing kind of irregular distribution in time. I would never have guessed the notes would even be here when I came home, lasting longer than ever before (27 hours so far): new, and still familiar: where else would this be happening? thought about the distribution that might be a home sign. "home electronics" that produce a particular time course, a tick tock clock under a hot water bottle under a fuzzy towel for puppy's pillow, ding!740Hz.... 500Hz, 500Hz, 500Hz, 500Hz
responding to something, the house is settling
sound making a shallow declivity, ("ground hammock," "reminding of hazel's wallow")(sensation of subtle tilt)
souvenir/swatch-books (book-like-a-car, book-like-a-house, book-like-a-concert)

Oh a Straw is very different

Oh a Straw is very different

Fractionated eating,
other tools relating to the derive: geometric constructions used to probe the dynamics of the terrain, simply: when walking someplace 'walking distance', first drive to place equally distant. rotation of neighborhoods

take time over, doubled reflections on a black background
(kes&tuvok::power&poise ('::' as the simplex relation))

this is gloss: scooching forward in seats
peculiar hearing of light drunkenness- indoors and outdoors
how high may the botanic screen transparent hedge be grown?
lightness of the tips
moving    
take time over= a star field
vision on the liquid surface,
of endless complications...      colors..                            
(99 drops of the most expensive/ or that you borrow/ w/o asking)
            ...colors lit from below and reflecting on from above,
moving in response to the REAL NEWS

"At lunches and parties there is no second chance for the daydreamer."
(theparisreview.org/interviews/6073/the-art-of-nonfiction-no-4-janet-malcolm)
talking about recording interviews so she can daydream and still find later the interesting things. maybe this day-dreaming quality is itself searching for interesting things. I was told once that shoppers enter a pre-hypnotic state while searching for example clothes awaiting hypnosis. to go shopping together! house music. to almost go dancing together, ugly place- -
      side view of time scale structure to kinds of interviews, tv shows, stories-parties
      practicing public interview/moderation to group hypnosis sound
         a wind which may correlate to speech in the room, flagging at first when we stop talking, but growing to a, still subtle, stature- at which it ducks below speech and blooms after it. nonimitative electronic sound synthesis- in the semiconducting materials

IMPLICATIONS
"I think we should not be deceived by the simplicity of that statement. the human mind has the awesome ability to condense enormous amounts of observation, of experience, and of reasoning into a few economical, meaningful words. In these same words, the human imagination can also sometimes communicate a whole universe of beauty and emotion." Halton Arp in closing his QR&C [to be reviewed shortly here, together with Julesz' FoCP/ FoCV FoVeaCentralis]

BEYONDNESS
when, it communicates like that, what is implication and what isn't, speculative fiction halts.
[Chris Cohen's obviousness of implicature beyond (pos)]
self amazing ness of what is being said or dreamed. "an emerald light is shining in this idea"
"We find out what we are doing by doing it (single line of past Breezy Day's Band orienting text)"
realizing various implications of the story (Delany says writing as if investigating the history of a so far only rumored situation. interviewing the participants) which could be presented to oneself compressed even down into a band name: Park Detail's for example, showing on my(personal) further consideration some leaving bilateral symmetry, but also embracing self- heightened into the music time.
that in the series of lectures, those living would be presented by their words, but those who have died will be presented in music

Methodical Concepts Driving

Methodical Concepts Driving

short hops on the freeway (intimate knowledge of the patterns of distance interactions, patterns of road surface), camaraderie through common experience of freeway detritus: collections of what appears to be (but obviously couldn't) square tissues, with a uniform way of skidding over the roadway, as if floating on our force, somewhat thicker, like magnolia petals, primitive white petals, cumpled veination. domed shapes- mysterious specificity

what can be seen, dragging or forcing aspects of following, , loose and easy movements, the apex of the curve. abstract models:+ instrument scan pattern/ personal summation and display of continuous performance data. OBDII

[more] glasses, attitude: long tapes of recorder pulled through living landscapes, contact microphonie of cat-toy-environment [both for tour, stance taking up of attitude, playing of stroke- disputation of notes into stable slower unfolding objects, slow rotation of higher dimensional objects, +with some transparency (meaning total state feeling incipit)] interaction of trills

YoYoMa+3generationsInSupportStructure, descriptive waves in periodic portrait layout.
colinear/+rectilinear assemblages of white dots perforate surface
(grid bias patterning as in curtain's cover)
remainder=?gas stations, code blocks, color blocks, pin stripes, deep gloss

at the stamp show certain surface characteristics among the free handouts postcards, flyers, and among the seller's booths: attract the eye: plastic, leatherette, metal clasps, diffusing plastic binders, vinyl signage, ephemera, the frames, stamps. in this place to form an attractive surface, but not by following standards, but touching them. the repetitious falling of the frames following frames, all stamps about cats, for example, until we forget what other stamps look like.

PD$B

culture war
dream telling you to dispose the evidence
love-dream
dream telling you to intensify
dream telling you 'you are fucked'
help

true language of comic books
life in flowers

practice keeping two things in mind at once:
trees and text [Park Detail's Band]
literate rhythms, metricality phrase structure
life in flowers

Park Details' Band (butterfly) shoulder Perch Patches

white and folding in embroidery instructions
space unfolding flutter path in beautiful ease!
a landing-anointing, test/anchor-sheet(flap)..
(this is energy too we should be able to tune visually)
    ..walking with new temporary local center/focus
we can use (I think Jerry Hunt was discussing in talking about discharge-planes)
    happy clothes tool

list of, you know like,
Motet
Epiphany
Madrigal
Mazurka
String Quartet
Symphony
Sonata

IS IT IF

Is it electronic music if
The plastic bottle of nonpareils is inverted and many float in electrostatic suspension like balloons set adrift, the exact model colors of balloons, (spoolsballoons.jpg)
and their irregular avalanching takes a course of days, a real situation macroscopied

Yes, and not because of the means, but the form, and how the sound attacts cats in time
application of electrostatics to cat toys
reactive only to entities in the 7½ pound weight class (s-mystery door swings)

? percolation/random resistor nets paper
tilings/nonpareils (dioramic background? or illumination reflector)
balloon-form (upended (pended(u) ) bottle with squared vaulting) gondola contact microphone micro I
revolutionary consciousness/ 4th of july / color consiousness
leyden jar, gold foil movements. gold sputtered microphone decoration
verbal "chords" duplexion, expanding the wrong language

creation of beings, creation of categorization of beings (ontology/phylogeny)
through understanding of movement types, relations among movements.
wasps in the subcontinent given over to botanic guard-en
movements of insects, include all movements, but without the internal semantics (relation structure) found in subtypical animals. (mammals)

to 'play it as it lays'
follow sensory data
immediatement, animalism
in speed of trees

surprise birth of antagonist concepts

lift to higher dimension!
sudden freedom to find in behaviors not their conventional meanings, but implications about inner systems whatever
(tangentially: one beautiful aspect of etiquette)
 miscreance

rounding errors added to the spraypainting algorithm in the text drawing program
/my concern with seminumerical algorithms and physicality
/search and meeting of the inner agonist

[parameters passed to spraypaint algorithm from distance measures to 'buffer edges' (that is type-defined geometries (equals type defined topologies equals type defined behaviors, phase spaces.. off to read Visual Mathematics Library!))]

illiteracy legitamate

feeling for letters
do you have a language you are illiterate in? so that you know a language, but not how to write or read it. you have words, without any written aspect. I have literacy and almost-illiteracy. with which I can examine a little (resistant to too much) and see word-like preformations in my illiterate language, and find contradictions there, or rather clues that I have some system at odds with the system I know I have, the system I know about. something of sigils talk.
reading Lacan in 3d cutup style: by crossing my eyes. Burroughs says 'now let's see what it really says'
Peter Naur introspection of reading going beyond model of human activity as symbol processing.
these awesome deep house guys (Patrice Scott!!) going beyond model of what house is supposed to mean to deep feelings, permeating the layer of artificiality, which doesn't exist for them, only feelings and music! their titles for example are not of a set that constitute some model, but direct speech

buffer ripples, one long text buffer, with interpreted submanifolds.
gifts to Peter Naur's house
friends of the void dweller
driving in the avenues of life
and from deep then deeper
Reversing Time's Flow

sententiousting

a note on last post:
that chaotic filter sweep negative-pressure mouth sounds are missing the point,
though of course they will be another fork initiated by the electronics technology,
in that the feeling is there one of extreme doing-ness
where we search for less or nondoing, real-non-real

If Something Big Went Missing

exiles
playing guitar today a high fourth plus a halfstep below, 'rainbow' sound close to the bridge, I was thinking, oh, if I lost synthesizers, if suddenly it was a world where they hadn't existed, maybe I would sometimes be playing like this, trying to find the sounds again. but clarinets are lost to me, mostly. serpents, groupings-- orchestras.. this seems to clarify something about synthesizer. maybe that the playing isn't looking for new things, but looking back to things we forgot we forgot.
if a language was missing, if Singhala was, would I be looking here and there to find similar feelings? where would I even look? [Indonesian hakuru..]
when I wrote before about exiles perhaps unconsciously enjoying foods that have some minor relation to tastes they've lost, I was thinking of my parents

Cleaning Times

I start to recognize the assignment of textures replacing conventional notion of cleaning and organizing.
creating textures by organizing self-similarity areas, and also using those textures in organizations.
was I saying some weeks ago that I've now by impulse enough stuff that I can enjoy by recombining. enough material, like a band. (right amount of material) (kinds of paper wappings)

placing some photo clippings around the room to indicate future developments: coffee service below the scope cart, theater riggings to control velvet curtains. evaluation period pictures of airplanes and cars, perhaps to be replaced by scale models. photo albums of clippings towards bedtime books in the making. TV monitor banks used as temporary viewing ports on successions of these useful images.
thinking about tv broadcasts and magazines specifically as sources for this kind of useful thought-imagery, picking out which magazine to read, design of information scanner.

Turrell Saint-Exupéry

Exercise 1

feel free to concentrate as much as I want
(in the passing moment, passing the activity of writing (P. Naur) into the state of writings being the byproduct of 'composing' (H. Brün); Naur again)

[borrowing word only from Tarthang Tulku for older tool of mine: Reversing Perspective Time]

next text editor in ideas of creation (indices, etcetc)(tools to personal punctuation development, example the question mark) phases, publishing
MUSIC

 I M A
F O X
t O O

FOTO-AXIOM

fOTO-axiom     

           foTO-aXIcm

fox ears!

aterial glassa p.1

visit to toy store in search of object-sounds, kinds of plastics by sound. should have some amount of glass in our life. imagined next door a shop of other kinds of sounds, oiled metal mechanisms in shade, kids still welcome, but aren't kings. sorting by sounds, shop assistants.
(saw bird holding fiberglass weft, called because of it and didn't know how to tell about the tiny crimping waves, shining intermittency. seen in some sections through fiberglass boards. video table)
...

when water gets together
mild mannered work
(to be continued...)

damping catcher, soft net supported by weight over pulley system reacting to velocity, like a hand absorbing the force of a fall, as when the camera has been set up to resonate and tip itself. never so tight as to bounce

related interest in model suspension for theater curtains
meccano and the amusements (cassette or vhs coming soon)

Sitting's old, try lying

in solution of chair problem, obviates sitting by zip up molded cushion cover on which to lay and work, which rises to any level easily, a limitlessly extensible mechanism.

Typing while lying, typing on Tippa writing on specialities of some generalizable interest, to non-specialist giving the use-flavor of the field

Roll over on back to ceiling-projected screen. light tubes in solar projection lens project. blasser's controller

design of chairs also, for music and for bench work, eating there

A Sure Way to Solve our Questions of Survival
WE Take as Axiomatic the sacred character of Fire
upon which We Base our Lives

ANTI MIDDLEMAN KILL

Blistering
The Gods Are Laughing At US - Chronic Disorder
Let's Rab! - The Donnas
Albany Punks (california)
MUDHONEY- Here come's sickness on 1989 alternate studio versions HIV Groupie Hits Pack 33 at 45R; then Eruption! at 33R We Know What I Need with Blasting Kicks!!! FFFFFF!!!
The Dead C= The White House (Paint It Black)

Smile ID

Fairly usual looking person to be served before me at the local copymat reveals a very unusual smile. The server returns with her passport photos for inspection and she asks 'can I smile more?', and they reply 'no, they want a neutral expression,' But for identification, that smile would really help!

Money Etc Fuck You

stop smiling at you ripoffs
making something new is difficult under present conditions of which you are a part
some more than others
you who reproduce the situation more exactly are more shit
looks almost like the real thing in some lights, but is vomit fuck you
a vomiting piece of shit
your smug face I wish I could punch it in

economic circumstance of reward for thoughtless work,
and punishment for creation
while you are supported in the fantasy of creativity
shit for brains

lift heart
consider likelihood in its vast aspect

You Don't Know Anything

H-bomb on Hardwax
Lift Heart

Ascendency of Teal

LePen, Sweatshirt (teal)
appreciation in others
Admiration of the principal and organization of gamelan
[Richard Feliciano's In Celebration of Golden Rain]
hope for the future

LEGO RUINS

I've written before here about a couple ways of getting excited about things being the same size or fitting together or being commensurate, but there's still to pin down a very significant difference in orientation between them. just now I've buried my recently unearthed lego ruins into a old toy zen rock garden of my mom's. glad they fit in one another, because this allows seeing both, makes them somehow transparent. this version of commensurability relates to the segments about 'how many things can you feel?' and 'sensory combination, Jerry Hunt':
-pressing outside ezra's case and feeling the ascii keyboard keys and the uneven legs and sprung upholstery of the stool below;
-feeling several carpets on top of one another lightly, through paper and sock;
-sounds of cloth-metal, establishment of characters in combination in working on Jerry Hunt's John Dee (how many things can you hear?)

the ruins are of a house I don't remember finishing as a kid, now reduced to the foundations of walls and remains of some built in furniture, like a real excavation site. some things are surprisingly real: a room with a computer and control stick with a heater or speaker (or both in combination among other possibilities) on the floor, and a bed-mat behind opposite in the same room. more of course. maybe want candles ?

a local's habit of upending a sparkling water over the pint glass he knows it fits in nicely. I've watched it several times (but when it came time for me to do it I still hesitated in slightly uneven pour)

pouring coffee into milk (vegan databank-- on reading burroughs' bacon correct bending over a fork (before flying out a rubber asshole marked EATS, reminding me of mixing trash before eating it) have considered calibrated hot plate tests to establish methods of perfect prep for bacon, etc. in case of honoring the already butchered. direct analogy to admissibility of data collected by Nazis on human subjects)

overflow- brimming pour- Tirokuḍḍasuttaṃ: 'Na hi ruṇṇaṃ vā,soko vā...' , before saké and masu I've had the habit, and the other day in serving sparkle water to Randall, and Eben who I'd brought to interview him- 2 glasses alike, one narrow and tall, the other short and fat, presented first to Eben to remove his overflowing glass from Randall's. drawing of same in teal felt pen (LePen) with dots for bubbles

holding on to affected by
dream of relatives deeply criticizing me
sitting cross-legged or so on mattress-bench, dark wood [don's house], back to wall, tv somewhere, or aquarium light, dark 2 floors high space just above me, sloping down, perpendicular hall to left, other doorway beyond talkers. inlaws couple in front, ?sister to left. both exits therefore guarded/ 'manned'.
criticism before art exhibition, to not hurt artists feelings. as part of general criticism.
example of desilu episodes didn't work to help me be different last time.
wake up feeling its true, but no specifics. very bad feeling.
one thought was to bring a broader appeal to the sounds of the metronome.
drop the need for validity

How Much Vacation

How Much Vacation do you need?
may be clarified as "...to achieve such-and-such"
this question is coming while laying facing back, the question is coming from above and away like slow (half second) exponential attack falling in pitch to target, internal motion, naturalistic sudden stop. these have shapes like long tubes to the flare of trumpet mouths. several notes (more than three), one after the other and passing non conflicting trajectories, well spaced. [relation to concatenated scans in filming an object: Clipson, Ruiz, Kamler. many others. list]
other notes may be 'The Flower of Crime' (like 'In the Solvent of the Moment')

you don't know about Breakfast

well History!
from Titus Burckhardt's Alchemy "hope [. . .] to rescue the spiritual horizon proper to alchemy - the 'royal art' - from the misleading simplifications inevitably attendant upon a purely historical approach. Just as objects in space appear smaller the farther away they are, so whatever is distant in time appears to us reduced and simplified in form - and the greater the spiritual gap between one age and another, the more this is so."
that SST Slovenly has more to do with Black Tambourine than anyone I hear talking about bt now.
what is similar?
changing way of hearing- house music, the difference between what I was attracted to when I started to enter the field, and what I am attracted to now. some mystery of speech about tracks from full term

another animals

[first seen line of hummingbird and my happiness at copying it with my hand]
lines drawn by butterflies, their special shapes
see also the net diamond shapes they make together, meeting mostly each other, and little showers or tassels from where they have landed their eggs. the different quality of the lines drawn by the particular plants they land on and are familiar with. some harmony or coversion between these shapes which know one another


thinking of how music could stand as a tree does, but (even in memory of music made explicitly thinking of trees) only a partial answer seemed possible: that people could stand as trees and their music as the tree's flower. /the flower of society/ the way the bark separates from itself, giving the texture- thoughts of writing, the trunk or branches

humor of mushrooms in connection to shrubbery. type of impermanence, weakness, invisibility!

[another tracks of The Beatles; my If you ask the animals...; last animals post: "one's own way of doing things"]

peripheral themes to national anthems

A. airline theme songs, airlines considered as national representatives, inwards ambassadors and exemplars. airspace

B. jimi hendrix star spangled banner, subsidiary list of treatments of hendrix: Christian Marclay 'encore', Blowhole..

and C. I knew already: shortwave station signatures

current arrangement so titles slide across when you open the door 'the doctor is in'
projecting fridge magnet letters from across the room back onto the side they stay on the filing cabinet
LFT, P6 G
brought initially to study manga sound effects (genocyber) and then 3 letter band names
UXA FYP

TO JK POTTER, JIM GARRISON, CLIFFORD PICKOVER

Tigertailok 2

in further considerations coming
99 drops of the most expensive liquor you can afford in the north east corner of the room
sharimiki bonsai. see decay arrested, or rendered good- smell of liquor from corner
(diagrams in Levi-Strauss, triangle and watery reflection)
(tea time idea: muddy puddles replaced with milk-tea)


[expanding plant electrophysiology- measurements taken from sharimiki and other bonsai exhibiting struggle and poise. individuation

and group individuation ~"ah I didn't want to park there, I kept driving because all those trees were still and these trees on the next block were all waving for us.. I'll turn around, but see how beautiful they are?" NAMM convention parking- Disney trees, Morgan Evans]

in discussing mass sterilization, future of humanity, etc with my dad he asked about other species. I suggested that we think of them as humans who do things a particular way. "Il y a des Godards comme il y a des renards." Birds who give up much else to be light enough to fly.

national anthems band list

start of a list of music relating to national anthems
Stockhausen Hymnen
Bartók Kossuth
David Rosenboom Musical Intervention 1979
Louis Andriessen Volkslied (though for the band is equally important In Memoriam)
Mathews and Rosler interpolation from The British Grenadiers to When Johnny Comes Marching Home

little album invert

Ken Ishii Jelly Tones video sequences in which inverted and direct alternate bubbling, so that it looks about the same if inverted. cover, inner sleeves tiled stills

restaurant paintings

nice place for a painting in possibility of meeting anyone
waiting by bathroom, companionship (hidden angle, telephones)
"public house", character of different eating houses-
shopping a painting for one's restaurant,
asking for or making a painting for one's restaurant.
making a restaurant for your painting to be in
« architecture school »

TO DO

"desktop software", disguised
but to be able to be driven informatically by parametric::(")coded
[mouse movements, to build a linkage say, that carries noise from the hand, modulated to be transparent,
linkage studies, impromptu of plotting data, sonic transforms 'initially']
metronome in analogy to this, built on-view-of system
and doing the beautiful things a metronome does (complex of delays in trigger moments, out to chime circuit)

(easily "learnt"(without comment) and of high datarate)used
statistical, histogram module [as envisioned to study Lamé-Time-Generator sounds]

at last! first! breakthrough! of ice
to Jerry Hunt's Judge DEE!
I am shaking them!
grilled flashlight, scrape scissiors, stirrup hand

synthesized dream of making of anime hit soundstage hinge on resonant box for tank threads beautiful play
sound-coin--collection

Columbo's evenings with the lights left out
end of an episode
a contemplation of the conductor and his music both a richness
He's a Married Man

I Did Deep Breathing For An Hour
meditating with the computer
note try to repeat deep breathing for a whole day
conscious control of breathing, dolphins
evolution of hyperoxygenation

Well-At-All
test did you do it well? did you do it at all?
it is always being done, in some way, but if understood at-all, then it is well-enough. measuring by what happens. in 'Speech Difficulty' well-at-all, to have done it at all is very good, back from the brink the direction lost melodies go

Imaginary Garden Party Photos

yesterday was shown a new face to join the party, but the posed souvenir photo wouldn't show the special attitude of listening: while someone else supposed-more-allied is talking. the photo is more a photo of my own shifted allegiance, or short freedom from allegiance, that I could take it right then, not of who's talking, but who's listening.
[this one gained not at the time, but after introspection]
need for snapshots to be reconciled with dogmatic attitude wanting only the one big souvenir

"No, these are not so personal questions at all, we have a science and teaching of it, come"

some-low-(but effective)-percentage-spandex stirrup pants under corduroys. taken off together thoughtlessly. put back on supine, under cover of a blanket. pleasure in quality of difficulties of getting them on. station moment in while observed the New-social pleasures/arts. differences- everything
This allowed to pass with out any pause, but still well enough to write about now

begun to be able to read I Ching on hexagram 10, Lî, treading on a tiger's tail works out ok. in similar fashion imagining what it is like to be in each of several positions in a situation. yellow arrow shows orienting direction of where the abstract audience/witness/society is supposed to look from. orange arrow points out first position to be examined 

Structural Homosexuality

also yesterday, in discussing with Will, we came to the question of how to transform a world with many people into a world with few people. much material for future work (novels, buildings). In digression I asked if he could imagine that right now we were living in a world where everyone was homosexual. We went to that world and I asked how it was different. He described solidarity and openness (feelings also mentioned earlier in an analogy to the sinking Titanic wherein there are rooms where people do something completely different- the internet is sinking! web-rooms)
Will say "another one like you, but better" I note indicates an enemy in the heterosexual world, but a friend in the homosexual. the next step in the derivation is to imagine just that functional replacement by its consequences.

I think there's going to be alot of these! not quite right, first try. lines are not touching in imagined version. a bit sparser, more dynamic, more elastic.
imagined yesterday while talking to will about mappings from one part of oneself onto another. earlier in the day he'd asked if mathematical ideas had effected how I am in the world. was saying we acknowledge that the connection between out thoughts and other parts of us could be entirely different than we imagine, yet we seem to persist in acting as if we knew- after band practice where in dropping a goal we fulfilled it. "oh. I see. I have to occupy your mind". unrelatedness of thoughts to results. last week phone description of parametric function passing through fixed points analogous to what happens on a certain analysis (in this case, whether we sound good). varying the parameter changes everything BUT those fixed points (in this case, our speech and feeling about whether we sound good).

(IF) I can tell him what's wrong with him better than he can tell me. more convincingly

hillcats watching.
have graduated from thinking while driving of cats running out in front, from watching where they might be coming from, to imagining still cats watching me going by. that everywhere there are noble cats watching me as I go. in form and moving how express and admirable! in Action, how like an Angel! in apprehension, how like a God" I imagine now to be descriptions not to be piled on all at once, but describing modes. the cat while sitting and contemplating is in god like thought, in moving is only moving, beautifully

dedicated to Capitan Picard, hope he sees it
PURITY OF HEART IS WILLING ONE THING

Best Editions

I forgot to mention in the 'best books' (GoogleAnswers) discussion to mention the related question of Best Editions. my dad's search for certain editions of The Merck Index; parallel reading of early and revised editions of Delany's  Towers trilogy, diamond man showing me facsimile pages from an early edition of Dana's Mineralogy in Tucson, with better illustrations..
[note file]
strange analogy between editions and crystal forms, elucidated by collector not of rare minerals, but rare forms. who I'd like to meet

Geheimrat, Geheimer Rat

"Feldman"

10 minutes ago was talking about Morton Feldman. now listening realizing that the image I had and was discussing was much purified, and in fact a direction for myself: to be interested in a single succession, by presenting it over and over again but avoiding collateral impressions of repetition or succession-structuring. of course, in that engagement other opportunities will arise.
that's about what I said, but now I see that has not to do with Feldman, but this very pure image based on what I would like to do with such sounds. and now a obvious picture to myself of problems with my current repetition structuring.
[continue]

New TV with underscan switch, very interesting.
Ozu and Columbo episodes, much new things to see at the frame edges.
recommended to mike grost, where I first read: "beautiful blue plastic bucket on the floor; this is the typical 'circular object on the floor or table in an otherwise largely rectilinear composition' familiar in Ozu."


thoughts also of extraction of film-cut-metricity, pulldown
frame buffer built with both things in mind

a word for Ring Finger that starts with 'L'
Dr Taverner often makes a subtle sectarian gesture with his left hand, and I consistently visualize it as made with the ring finger of his right.
My ring fingers are distinguished in that when I continue the feeling of an oscilation through my arms to my fingers, they're the ones that feels it clearest and as a continuity.

importance of initials in thought
importance of decimal representation in thought (analogy of decimal digits to initials)
importance of modular residues in thought [lead to "casting out nines" and numerologic operations, expand "casting out elevens", time convert planetary angle residues etc]
importance of primes

meaning of a prime year, that no periodic happening with a period of integer number of years may happen in both this year and the year of christ. cicadas for example

Jump-upon-jump FUNdaments

maturing idea of 'collected works', in formation at least since seeing Patrin's volumes in Buffon Minéraux red cloth. like H.T. Huang in Needham. acceptance of image on shelf.
Freud Standard Edition.
needs of recollecting motivational experiments of quantum mechanics
structuring of nine month reading plan. analogy to prehistory in homeschool reading lifelist reconstruction.

J-E Deseve's drawing Dendritic Native Bismuth in Limonite from Schneeberg, Saxony with by now tarnished silver paint. Trianon's editions of Breuil http://library.ucsc.edu/sites/default/files/fawcus.fm_.tps_.pdf
(maybe relates Éditions de Oiseau-Lyre)

my favorite question at GoogleAnswers: #232918 about how to ask for the 'best book' on a particular subject

Feather inventor

In analogy
IF birds were unknown to us
to invent feathers would be what I'd like to try now
happiness of the new motions: fluttering +
use in cartoons to show the movements of personal snoring
   [impression that in comics (manga more?) new inventions along
       these lines may be found
   - follow quick drawing of cloud for 2/27 concert program layout
   - follow to comics store in metropolis. - more]
stuffing jackets with these+ pillows, blankets

practice good inventing by thinking this way and also carving a few semiplume feathers from a redwood shaving
best to invent New Basics

feathers in Tulku's TSK
implication of bird in feather, holding up feather

rainbow training

some years ago pulled of the highway with friend to watch big rainbow, slowly disappeared. in companionship showed aptitude to see traces of rainbow, in barely places, very beautiful. double, triple rainbow, sundogs, later discovered x-rainbows, in more and more broad vanishment. imagined together training to see everywhere. and did some

few days ago, watched Imamura Shohei's Black Rain on a consumer trinitron monitor with subtle rainbow either from a magnetization or a deformation of the mask mesh. and was thinking already of the earlier reststop when at the end is said "if a rainbow appears she'll survive" in looking at a white sky, of course, I saw one

then yesterday I saw what might have been an aura coming out of a baby's eyes, though at first I thought it was some kind of skin translucence that looked like a turquoise eye liner, but it did not stay quite stay on but lagged behind the baby's movements and looks. the third or so time I've seen something like an aura, lifetime record, always this feeling of color turquoise, violet, translucence- before it had been complete outlines

in development a theory of what was seen, that if vision is like audition that I know more of, with ?10 times as many descending pathways as afferent ones, and as I had a teacher suggest, it could be thought then better of as a kind of controlled hallucination, the creation of new possible images to hallucinate with would allow new perceptions to be displayed 
[in notes here, brakhage saying that an artist should have been sent to film the moon, someone practicing showing unforseen things, avoiding recreating known things. that the moon films look to be reseeing scifi movie pictures from home]


will take down now Jaegers' The Human Aura, shelved in place since I bought it years before the reststop even for the one color plate aid, a field of yellow to stare at (I suppose the examination of after images (and other detritus) as things would allow an openign by which to see new) at a time when yellow was especially thought of
[back in here- ?edit with numbers when shelving system nomenclature is more established. 'building/room number', sign painter employment at university, and at library- book spines, square patch. 6 floors+ roof access]

construction of a ceremonial 'tail'

articulated wooden movement swisher. religious aspect.

fur covering. discussion of fur qualities,

            search under cosmetic brushes

cat toy 2 in uprights ּ[as in streaming away from hand (time), as in video feedback low rotation, some scaling up, centering offsets;  "waterfall display" in perusal of analogic referents] 

oh and of course, biographical note on development of question mark, among others, from attitude of cat's tail. to be included up front, and even hidden by assumed obviousness

pleasure of dark blankets in low light

list of architects
(Chris Martiniak, I thought!)
xenakis, (gerard pape)
Glas (Prometh, Hannes, Tancred, Berxback 7, Zacken, Stellarius,
         Maß, W.H., Anfang, Antischmitz, Angkor)
Bruce Goff (Heinz Emigholz, Sullivan, etc)
Bruce McClure
Palladio
Daniel Sheets Dye, Stiny & Gips, [Starr East Asian Library]

body redundancy lineage

I talked to a person in my dream who was physically of a type that I know though the particulars I think I invented. how do you describe a type? my impression is that there are many more divisions and orders of regularity than we use in common. freckles! (possible investigation into classical conceptions, complexio, etc. maybe in relation to classical color terms, red/gold etc) Prediction of nipple's appearance, ?a good example because it is kept covered. surprise? surprise at someone's teeth? not sure if teeth enter into my conception of the types,  but bones do certainly, one's frame.

woke up with a word from the dream in mind VESPICA, with a visual impression as a product name in bold sans somewhat compressed horizontally, though after typing it, it seems to be lacking a letter. Ezra and I share his occasional impressions that the face a word is set in will make it appear to be spelled incorrectly

[in Star Trek TNG an episode often has parallel narratives, not in contact, but producing an impression of overall formalism and meaning. we speak this way too]

the person, of type HILARY, worked at the store that sold VESPICA, much like home depot, [ah, it seems spelled well now, in this relation to Hilary, if all on one line] much temporary/not-temporary plywood with hasps and padlocks (?as in back rooms of some supermarkets), circular shape to check out area (?after exploratorium), widdershins circulation, my confused wasting of time, waiting in line after line, to discover what I thought was one long line was several, etc etc. out of line and back in. wandering off saw worker Hilary pretending to hang herself with products from the shelves, a new very white nylon rope, still bundled, a metal hook with spring stays, maybe from a block and tackle? up on a stool. talked to her and understood she was just playing, but still why play at that, and she had maybe twisted her neck a bit. I felt her right shoulder which had one of the biggest knots I'd ever felt, I naturally took to kneading it, but just once as she winced a bit I momentarily reflected that I might be being a bit forward. I think I said "wow you're pretty messed up!" to somehow ease the tension and let it be ok, which worked somehow (must have been my tone, because I then momentarily reflected that it's actually a strange and not necessarily nice thing to say) she pointed to her left lower back (then I realized slowly while feeling it that her torso was the wrong way around, that she was facing me with her back). some how I took my leave of her to get back in line carrying my trivial item (yellow plastic like my cheerios day container) and passed an aisle ad for VESPICA on the way.

Respighi's "Pini presso una catacomba" accompaniment for replacing my desk in it's home position over the indigos (it's been on the road with me). first and most naturally with Seiji Ozawa's version conducting the BSO on Deutsche Grammophon (2530 890), then listened to the same on Angel 134443 (Muti conducting Philadelphia orchestra) and Everest 3436 (Horvat conducting Zagreb philharmonic orchestra).. both a bit dumb sounding after Ozawa.. I remember two other versions I didn't have to hand, but already with these three I had a lot of fun. it's been a long time since I got into this, but mostly the records are there on the shelf: the few hits I always picked up when I saw a version cheap: Grand Canyon Suite, Holst's Planets, etc... in retrospect I must have been interested in that low range of the orchestra, and the sort of haze of recording it. maybe that's where also variations in feel is easiest for me to detect?  opening of Tannhauser at Bayreuth LP, the haze of shepard's flute and a muffled cough from the audience

beautiful light at night: central room with lights out, lights of all adjoning rooms on, coming through the folding doors and two-way fireplace. interest in the architect that used to live here. catalogs that used to come for him after we'd moved in. mail for me!

record cover invert !

am pleased to say Jeff Mills knew about this too! back cover of From The 21st
Makes sense as he definitely has the mind to appreciate the implications
http://i29.servimg.com/u/f29/14/29/58/21/25181710.jpg
The attention that he has asked be paid to the total mental states and positions of other electronic musicians, he himself very much deserves. I have been studying all available statements in hopeful preparation for an interview.

blindfold coming of age present

one technique, employed on blocks, of organizing in my room
is to think how I would do it if I were blind, and with the blindfold test and check, test and check,
to think of overall forms for blind use and to build up areas that can be used blind. still starting out!

blinds over certain drawers, a slit black cloth hands can go in easily. like the door top curtains seen in Japanese public houses I imagine. reading Nō plays, often people are walking travelling on the road, and it is said travellers who spend a night under the same tree or who share water will be friends in the next life.
Who all we forget. to renew an old excerise I didn't do enough of back when I thought of it (~8 years ago! after hearing about Disko Bob's private shrine) visualize everyone I know at a spring garden party together, making a souvenir photograph towards the end. friends of the blind, that we don't see them when they're away.
the records on the shelf are attracting my attention, how to address them. thinking of black paper pleated to form a blind surface to represent them, just to remember the little step I have taken. (? pleating machine diversion)
hopeful dreaming of certain projects given over to the domain of blindfolded work. a product developed entirely sightlessly. assembly-language-crystal formation tool, perhaps. other ideas.
what comes entirely from my mind? distancing from building of tools for ourselves. I would believe if I was told "No, these are not so personal questions at all, we have a science and teaching of it, come"

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I should say a same question has to do with forgetfulness. moment to moment I have forgotten who I know or the Strapping Fieldhands 10"s that are on the shelf. (story of a friend who in temporary short term amnesia lost the fact that he had broken up with his girlfriend, when she visited to see how he was recovering, he was surprised to hear it and "oh why?" :"I don't know")

this particular set of wonders right now of mine, though formed from long in development elements, I will have turned away from sometime too. If you call me now, if you call me later.

last cables

Few nights ago ended by playing with Ezra a late Buchla 200 system, very advanced and full, but we had only a few patch cords. it had in it a -1606 MArF, where we started, just to see if it went at all. first stop kick drum sequence, to settle down and be influenced by Ezra's presence and the atlantean curves of Don's case design--
courtly high guitar pinch harmonic, the kick in what Ezra reported was 7, but I only knew was in 1-1-1, mysterious patterning of the kick timbre by ramp of length commensurable with one time interval but not another, heard in echos. at home also I use only very few cables, letting them be rare for times, to make everything coming from one area or interaction. What we balled up to sleep to that night used two oscillators, but only one MarF output, to those could have been perhaps multiplexed or 'multiplexed' some way which inheres. I have certainly heard similar dispositions of the orchestra coming from one oscillator, a kick, flagolet melodies, swaying background curtains. and even the tunes and pattern which I that night dictated I have heard coming on their own from energy pushed through fm loops into lower and lower frequencies, for example.
A face back of my interest is the disarmed or removed, eddying story that in a later age, person (me) whose practice moved following lateness.
(? back face- woven coat back, university action and dress. wood paneling Beech lecture room)
late master
courtly refinement in aesthetic suspension
approach with cables in left hand, feel of cables and walk. at home I approach always in lying position to scattered units, here there was more formality. study at juncture may be a way finally to build a polished 'system' for myself, while also, this morning I admired the silkscreened rings around the mounting holes of my 259 panel, having never been mounted anywhere, and thought of the deco plastic bits I have seen used to mount mirrors, etc.

more use-attention notes

round drum stick tips regularize the sound, reducing variation by stick angle.
sort Cosmetic's brushes bring feeling out to looking on.
buying of glitter paper yesterday, specular reflections reject first store's product.
method of forming ensemble statistics of glitter orientations.
no store of the perspicacity
who would know where to buy the different disposition qualities of glitter paper?
who collects and practices answering such questions?

A Second Favorite

Isn't it nice to have a second favorite thing that perhaps can cast a light on your favorite?
Yesterday, after preamble (preamble is also very nice to have), I did not go past the exploratorium's 1DOF-inverted-pendulum (IP). many things can happen there. and when it was time for breaks there was a observation area below for watching other arms at it. The second favorite had it- a 2-plane-symmetric bench bench on wheels actuated by a very reducing gear train leading from a little hand crank spindle set in the top of the bench breaking the usual bench symmetry but not the extra one, leading the way like a train's stack towards the balcony over which the balancing arms show.
(first guess, second guess; preamble, favorite, second favorite. at first guess the reduction ratio was something like 1000:1)

While swinging and holding inversion I tried loosening body things, breathing, feeling my knees, as I have heard christine say about singing. Also introduced eyes closed, and alternate visual fixations. start A little study of the free sliding movements of the hinge point. Identification of persons by their pattern of corrections. (knock-box or knock-lock, and a safe breaker in that world, an impersonator at low-consciousness, maybe closer to a forger)

a favorite and a place from which to observe the favorite also nice
most direct observation of the bench's progress was found in the angle of my knees as I sat astraddle as over a 7½" gauge steam train. body concerns! Just before we had been in consultation with people looking at us as music-people which surprised me, that there even was something like that, a music person. now Laura was off in the sound-exhibits, but I with the first and second places, on the stair down from the balcony to the bench thought ? my category body person